hey, its been a loooooooong time since i was here. hahaha. and yup...
o level is over and sch reopen tmr. *except the batch tat is waiting for results ><* time flies yea! soon it was o level.. then it was AFTER o levels
then it was AFTER holidays.
oh man..
i think i juz wasted my holidays =(
haizzz
btw... why am i here?
ASK WEI HENG!!
haha... he 'FORCED' me to update.. or should i sae 'THREATENED' haha...
ok... so since i was FORCED/THREATENED to update... thats all im going to sae..
haha...
blog, u have to thank WEI HENG for making u alive again ok!!
and before i end,
OMG, IM WORRIED FOR RESULTS!
ok im done..
BYE^^

(weiheng, are u happy with this update? =p)

20112010
so pain so pain! didt expect you to juz blantly cut this relationship. what was on ur mind at the beginning of this year... those promises of u saeing that u will never ever leave me, what happen to them? u threw them down the drain? what had happened to you? u are not the person who i noe that will hurt me so much. cry. is the only this i noe how to do now.i was waiting from sec 1 that i could enjoy the time tgt after o's. and now.. it was juz about a year that we could have a great time tgt during the post o level period. You started to ignore me. you do not come to me anymore. you dun send me home anymore. you dun talk to me anymore. you avoid me. you stop smsing me. i miss the 'nitez, sweet dream, muackz, love ya' i want them back. did u forget about pooh. what do you wan me to do with this pooh. this father-less pooh. you are gone. so easily like the wind. juz the sms of 'guess so' when i ask you is this how we end, thru just these sms, is the end? honestly, i dun feel it is fair. you didt even let me noe wad is happening when u started to give me the cold shoulder. you made me hold on so long and hard. and now you wan me to let go. i dun expect you to do anything now. But why? what juz happened? i dun believe that you can let go this 3 years relationshipso easily. i will never believe. But wads the use of saeing all these now? you're gone. you indeed let go of this easily, but i cant. u made me tot of the future with you, but now. you juz crash all these. wad do u wan from me. you dun even care about me anymore. i wonder when i was smsing you on 20112010, did u break a tear? if u didt, i have nth to sae. you juz treat this relationship as your game. you wan, u play. you're tired, you stop. you said u were tired of relationship, but how?why?when? you're like a changed person. not the loving, caring, understanding, cheerful, faithful, cheeky zhexi anymore. its like u juz became the cold-blooded, heartless zhexi. i think you dun even noe how much tears you made me shed. i think u dun even noe how deep did your knife stabbed into my heart. i guess u wont, never, give a damn. let me bleed to death and he wont take a look at me. you were once upon a time the guy who held my hand tightly as i walk and never ever let me fall to the ground. you did not teach me how to walk on my own without you or when i fall, u will always be there to pick me out. you never taught me how to pick myself up. Now, u pushed me hard, real hard not onto the ground, but into a hole, this dark scary hole. u did not turn back, u walked away, leaving me to struggle up this hole. i dunno whether am i able to come out of that alive, but u did not care. i dunno why i will still melt when i see your photos. i dunno why i feel 'joy' when i see your smiles. maybe tats my love for you. but i guess u dun noe tat when you were trying to tell me that this is the end of the relationship, my hands tremble, weaken, turn icy cold. i could literally see my heart beating, fast, real fast. when i see the sms of 'oh. actually i doubt these a risk. lets just sae im not into relationship anymore.' i juz stun. till now. i could even count the together number of smses u send to me this year. trust me, exactly 33. 14 from 20112010 when i tried to call u out to see u juz one time. but ended up apart. 19 from the rest of the year. the'guai' 'u ok' 'u coming' 'happy bdae' 'enjoy your day' were nice. but the others? i could even memorise all ur sms. and i really do. i remember every single sms u sent to me this year. why am i so stupid. i dunno why too. guess pooh really has no father anymore. i dunno whether should i hate you or love you. hate you for hurting me, love you becuz u are my love. i think i chose the silly route: to love you, always. stupid emilie.

o.o i guess i didt blog for v. v. v. v.... long huh. sorry >< (i guess)
but i juz poped in random today
i have to idea why too ><
anyway...
i juz watch two movies

Karate kid:
nice scenary ><
quite good story too
quite funny ><

Toy Story 3:
Really funny at times
but too emotional
too touching for me
i feel that it is not suitable for v. young kids ><
without you, i just had my worst holiday, the most quiet holiday, the most lonely holiday, the most horrible, terrible holiday i ever had!
no morning smses from you to enlighten my day, no night smses from you to end my day sweetly, no chat with you, not even a word or a text from you.
i dunno, my heart just hurt everyday when i wake up. i dun look forward for anything, at all. everyday is just a day, a normal boring day. everynight is just an end of a normal day.
without you, my life is nothing.

hey hey....
i came to blog...
cos SOMEONE!!! wan mi to blog (cheryl aka cousin la)
haha okok... erm... omg..
i think i forgot how to blog!
anyway.. yea.. im in her hse!!! using my comp.. hehe!!
and SHE beside up increasing she comp's volume!!!
so loud leh!!! omgomgomg.. haha
haha yea yea.. cheryl ar cheryl!!!
im posting becos of you ok...
bo honoured la!!!
hehe!! (i know u are smiling beside me =D)
ok.. erm... btw.. dun keep beside me say :'anyhow only'
see laa!!! poke poke poke!!! funny ar?!
haha okok... fine fine.. i have to stop le.. CHERYL AR!! stop poking!!!

heylo. yea.. i know this blog is dead...
but just gonna post sometimes when i have the mood.. hehe
today, so free to blog cos no hwk!!! lol
but i really dun feel the stress as a sec 4.
is there a problem wif me?
gosh..
GG...
just bored....

i really want things to be the way it was.
im not in the mood of everything, because i just need you.
im sick, mentally and physically sick. you are my medicine. i just need you

hurt and disappointed. are you fading away?
i guess my tears are running out. can things just get back to the way it was?
i cant get over the fact that things are so different; feeling hurt when you did not tell me anything and just ignore me. feeling hurt when you just take your bag and leave without looking back. seeing you closer to others gals than me. feeling that you are ignoring or not concern about me. the loneliness feeling i have everyday going home without you. feeling empty without you beside me anytime and anywhere. very afraid to look or talk to you. having the sense of insercurity. missing your warmth and smiles to me. missing your voice. missing the chats we have almost everyday to motivate me. missing the time we always have together. missing your love. feeling that things are going to change even though you promised me that i wont lose you.

i melt when i realised that you are doing this for me. But i cant concentrate really. i cant help thinking of you everyday even during lessons or even tests. I cant stop thinking of what is going to happen in the future; having you beside me again or seeing you walk away, further away. Having nightmares at times that i have lost you. I just wish things are like in sec 3. i need you. i miss you. really miss you.

no gift from you for Vday. is that a hint of anything? like losing you? please tell me no.
you promised that you will love me forever, you promised nothing is going to change. you promised! dont break your promise. please!
xin hao tong, hao tong.

ppl
exams are over
but i dunno wad to do
hahhas
proness rite?
ok ps.. quite bored...
bye

EmiliE :D
Mrt(nickname) >.<
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